im not talking to nobody ion gotta no more
im only keeping in contact with the ones that loved me when they ain’t have to
im only emerging from the shadows when absolutely necessary
imma be selfish with my time now
im not giving nobody nothing for free
not if ion fucking love em
not if they don’t make my heart smile
selfish with it now
with my essence
because i know now that it is valuable
that it is indispensable
that it cannot be emulated
and i don’t care if it gets to be a ghost town around here
because i don’t need nobody that need to piss me off
that need to stress me out
that need to trivialize my fucking feelings
i don’t need em.
i don’t need no fake friends
i don’t need no mindless conversation
i don’t need no unnecessary noise
and it’s time i care about what i need
it’s time i give a fuck more about what i want
imma cut all the fat
on my body
in my closet
on my mind
in my life
time to live lean baby,
don’t need all that clutter.
leave me alone with my thoughts
leave me alone to flourish
leave me alone to be at fucking peace.
im done catering to enemies with friendly faces
im done mapping out the nuisances in the kind of “loyalty” they demonstrated
im tired of juggling
and im just not willing to do it anymore.
so im not talking to anyone until i fucking feel like it
im not giving nobody that don’t deserve it the fucking time of day.